Long Time no see

Its been a long time since i update this blog.. okay, i didn't update at all. But i'm now here because its already the 3rd week of school and nothing seems to go my way, so i really have to figure out what when wrong and hope things will be better. First, i screwed my test, and i realise i've become more lazy so i really have to get out of that lump AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.

However, the most infuriating of them all is not my life at school, neither is it my school work, its my CCA! I've never had any problem with my cca until now. I am a distance runner and thats a fact, to me at least. But, it was definately not to my coach. He told me recently that i'll be running 100m and 200m for nationals. When i heard it, i was like WHAT!!! and he said its confirm. I'm not a sprinter and i have no reason why he did that!! Its true i have speed, its true i can run fast. but, having speed and being able to run fast doesn't make me a sprinter..

He said i must have confidence and believe that i can do it. he said i will surprise many people with my high knees. But, BELIEVING I CAN DO IT DOESN'T MEAN I'M WILLING OR HAPPY TO DO IT! A CCa is for you to have fun. and currently, i don't see any fun in me converting back to sprinting. Iwas a sprinter in sec 1 and elwiny realise i don't belong there so he transfered me to distance and now???? back to square 1???

You can, because you try. You try because you want. You want thats why you work hard. And to how to work hard, you ask yourself. This is the reason why people can be so successful. They know what they want and what they're working hard for. They are working hard because they enjoy working hard for something they like. And as for me, i guess i have to accept this dreadful change and work hard for something shittyman wants. but its definately not what i want...